Song: Can You See by Kayee Tam 谭嘉仪

最近，时常追看港剧，在其中一套港剧里，听到了这首感觉很清新的英文歌，歌名叫做Can You See。 在这里和大家分享这首歌曲，除了好听之外，还蛮有圣诞节的 feel~ 

MV 拍得很美，只是和歌词不是很相符啦。（纯属个人感觉与喜好。）

曲: 鄺靜欣
詞: Wayne James 
編: 朱俊傑 
監: 何哲圖/朱俊傑

Can you see
Light in my eyes
Like a child waiting for Christmas
The stars in the sky
Watch as I sigh
Can you see what they see?

Look at the trees
They're swaying
They feel the touch of the breeze
They overheard 
My whispered words
Can you hear what I'm saying?

Maybe I am only dreaming
So what if I'm wrong?
It can't be that long
Before you stop
And feel what I'm feeling
The stars and trees will always be
As I love you so
Can you see?

Look at the clouds
They're waking
Stretch in the warmth of the sun
They watch us and smile
And linger a while
Can you see the hearts they're making?

Maybe I am only dreaming
So what if I'm wrong
It can’t be that long
Before you look 
And feel what I'm feeling
The sun and clouds will always be
As I love you so
Can you see?

Maybe I am only dreaming
So what if I'm wrong
It can't be that long
Before you stop 
And feel what I'm feeling
Like all these things will always be
Yes, I love you, so
Can you see?

Elf's: Final Decision?

It's been so long, I have not penned down any thoughts, even posted any picture here, like I have shut myself off...

I was busy, so busy with works and overtimes for extra income. I had made my life as if it all about the money only. I fell sick a few times in November, I got depressed, and demotivated to go to work. I am home sick, miss mom and Sannie at home, Laney, Mandee and baby Nana at Southend, and dad, in heaven.

Getting emotional, yes, for sure, especially in festive season. More than 10 times I haven thinking when should I tender and go back for good again. But, will I get to do things that will make me happy? Or will it be the same again? Will I miss Singapore again this time after I leave? Honestly, I think this time, I am ready to leave this little red dot.

I think, I have missed out too many things ever since I started to work abroad, since 2006. Missed the time to spent with my dad before he went home to heaven, that's about 10 years or time. This year, since I came back, I missed time for grandma, and I didn't even get to visit her in July when I came back from London. I took things for granted, and she left us in September when I am not prepared at all. I missed the moment of Sannie's first born, missed the full moon celebration, gonna missed the 100 days celebrations too on 01 January 2017. And many more things that I have and going to miss... Next year, will be my first time not able to celebrate Chinese New Year eve and first day of Chinese New Year at home, all thanks to this job.

I don't know how some of the people can work like 15 years in a call center, to me, 1 year is more than enough. The pay is not too big if you don't work for overtime. But you gotta sacrifice your off and rest day to work, and that, will in conjunction of sacrificing your health for body and soul. I truly believe that we are made by God to learn to rest in Him, but the busyness and stress I got from my job has totally robbed me of my rest and peace. It even draw me further from God, I don't attend church, because I am scheduled to work on Sunday, and because I am too lazy and tired to wake up early for church then go to work in the afternoon.

All these are so wrong! The reason why I am so eagerly and keen to come back to Singapore is because I miss my church life in ncc. But ever since I started my shift work, everything just changed. I felt so stressed when being asked by fellow ministries servers and leaders, when will I be back to serve. I love to, to be honest, but I just can't.

And so, I brought up my feeling and thoughts to Laney, Sannie and mom, that I am gonna resign, probably next year after Chinese New Year, and go home for good. Thank God, that they are very understanding and supportive for my decision. If everything goes smooth, I should be tendering in February.

And Lord, I pray, that You open the door to the path that You have prepared for me, and closed those that are not meant for me. Amen.

無言

沒想過，會再遇上他。更沒想過，他會（假裝）不認得我。

男人，從前的甜言蜜語，都只是為了得到他想要的。

再見，還不如不見。

凡事發生，都有它的定律。上帝只是在我沒有預備的時候，讓我清醒。

感謝主。阿門。

Elf's: H. U. G.

hug is a form of physical intimacy, universal in human communities, in which two or more people put their arms around the neck, back, or waist of one another and hold each other closely. If more than two persons are involved, this is informally referred to as a group hug.

- excerpt from Wikipedia-

#IAmLongingForAHug

Elf's: The Dark Night of The Soul

It's truly the season of dark night for my soul now...

Have been facing challenges at work, not so much with skills or product knowledge, but with the environment and people there.

So many negative things I saw and felt but I chose to be optimistic, since day one I joined this company. But recently, I felt completely disrespect by my manager when I apologised for a mistake that I made. Honestly, I can't just let go the feeling. Although I am a new staff, but I do believe in mutual respect for one another. Even though between the CEO and the cleaner. However, the longer I work with my team, the more I see and feel. The leaders are always act according to their mood. Good mood, good treatment, bad mood, that's it. They will talk softly still, but sarcastically, and other might not even know what did they say. And so, we have to swallow their vomits on us. I really dislike it, I hate it!

O Lord, help me!

I am thinking of changing job, and praying for the right door to open. Perhaps, I should go to London and try working there for a short period? Or return to Malaysia and start the online business seriously? Lord, which way Lord? Where do I go from here? I am lost, Lord...

Elf's: Blessed Birthday Pastor Prince

Managed to attend 3rd service today at ncc and didn't expect that Pastor Price will be the preacher today as today is his '35th' birthday and I was told that he will be off on this Sunday. But God is good, I got Pastor Prince's preaching, teaching and blessings on his birthday, how privileged, precious and wonderful! Praise the Lord! 

May our good Lord blesses Pastor Prince more and more as he grows younger and younger in Him. Amen!

Today's sermon was about faith, and thank you Pastor Prince for the preaching and teaching today as it reminds me on something I thought I know but yet, I have almost forgotten about it. PREACH IT PASTOR! 

Elf's: 藍天白雲

Elf's: Daily Devotional 19 April 2016

This is a great reminder for myself. 

“Dear brothers and sisters, if another believer is overcome by some sin, you who are godly should gently and humbly help that person back onto the right path. And be careful not to fall into the same temptation yourself. Share each other’s burdens, and in this way obey the law of Christ. If you think you are too important to help someone, you are only fooling yourself. You are not that important. Pay careful attention to your own work, for then you will get the satisfaction of a job well done, and you won’t need to compare yourself to anyone else. For we are each responsible for our own conduct. Those who are taught the word of God should provide for their teachers, sharing all good things with them. Don’t be misled—you cannot mock the justice of God. You will always harvest what you plant. Those who live only to satisfy their own sinful nature will harvest decay and death from that sinful nature. But those who live to please the Spirit will harvest everlasting life from the Spirit. So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up. Therefore, whenever we have the opportunity, we should do good to everyone—especially to those in the family of faith.”

Galatians 6:1-10 NLT

http://bible.com/116/gal.6.1-10.nlt

Bearing Each Other's Burdens

The body of Christ is not a place of self-sufficiency, but rather a place of interdependency. When we share each other’s troubles and problems, we are fulfilling the law of love. Our burdens should bring us together. As we allow others to help bear our burdens, we find our love and appreciation for them growing. Our weaknesses call forth others’ strengths. As we serve others, we sow the seeds of support that will bear fruit when we most need it.

Excerpt from NIV Spiritual Renewal Devotional by Steven Arterburn and Zondervan, published on YouVersion Bible.

Thank You Lord for a timely reminder. You are always on time. 

Song: Hillsong - Love On The Line

Sang this song today at church, led by my fav worship leader - Adeline G.

Blessed by the song so much that I must share it here.

Here's the words of the song:

You put Your love on the line

To bear the weight of sin that was mine

Washing my river of wrongs

Into the sea of Your infinite love

With arms held high

Lord I give my life

Knowing I'm found in Christ

In Your love forever

With all I am

In Your grace I stand

The greatest of all romance

Love of God my Saviour

Mercy roars like hurricane winds

Furious love laid waste to my sin

With arms held high

Lord I give my life

Knowing I'm found in Christ

In Your love forever

With all I am

In Your grace I stand

The greatest of all romance

Love of God my Saviour

To the One who has rescued my soul

To the One who welcomed me home

To the One who is Saviour of all

I sing forever

It's a great reminder that was being sang and preached in church today, for me. 

It's not about me, but Christ who died for me. It's His love for me that I am who I am now. 

Who I am? I am the beloved of my Lord Jesus Christ. I am the disciple whom Jesus loves. 

I love, because He first loved me. 

Thank You Lord, for everything. Amen. 

1 John 4:19

Elf's: He made all things NEW

Today, marked the end of my 2 days orientation for my new job with M1.

Praise the Lord for He is good! Indeed, I have always know that the Lord has something great for prepare for me. Even if I have to went through some disappointments for some failed interviews with other employers like NTUC Income and Parkway. Deep in my heart, I truly knew that He will never leave me nor forsake me. And the blessings will come at the right timing only. 

And it came just before last year Christmas, I received the call from M1 for and did a phone interview, then was requested by the person in charged - Ms Tina to go to SG for another interview face-to-face. And within three weeks, I have got this job that is so full of blessings and convenient for me. 

First of all, the pay is higher than my previous job in SG, with much more benefits added in the package. Secondly, the location is so near for me to travel and there is company transport provided too for the employees of M1. Thirdly, so far all the people I met are really helpful, friendly and easy to approach. And they always wear a smile on their face. It makes me feel happy to start my career with them. 

Tomorrow, we will kick start our job training and Lord, I commit my brain and heart to you. I pray that Your wisdom and favour will cover me all the time and I shall have a teachable and hearing heart. I pray for Your favour and protection to surround me like a shield from the top of my head to the sore of my feet. Amen!

No words can describe how grateful I am for all the things you have for me, Lord. Thank You. 

Elf's: Stray Dogs

Went to aunt's place for dinner today and walked alone on a silent lane all by myself. And suddenly, there were 3 stray dogs appear in front of me and I was shocked. They seems to feel that I am afraid of them and tried to get closer to me and looked like wanna attack me at any time. I tried to be brave, and shooed them away by using my sling bag coz I forgot my umbrella. But they don't seem to bother me and kept walking towards me. I shouted and trying to look for help from people around but there was no body there for me. A motorcyclist passed by and I shouted "Help me!" But he just laughed at me and go away. I continued my 'battle' with the three stray dogs by walking backward (so that I can faced them as I was afraid to get bitten). After about 100m of walking backward, these three stray dogs saw a plastic bag on the road. Praise God! They rushed towards it and left me alone. I immediately thank God for protecting me from this unforeseen accident. 

And then, I remember dad. He was my super hero all the time. I never get to walk that lane alone for a very long time coz he always accompanied me and walked with me whenever I came back from SG and need to walk to any places. Usually, we will visit grandma and other uncles and aunts whom stay at PPR Kepong together. But today, I was there, walking alone. I miss you, 爸爸.

Elf's: 变成自己喜欢的那个自己

所谓，“我正在努力变成自己喜欢的那个自己”，是住在自己喜欢的城市，做自己喜欢的工作，吃自己喜欢的美食，过自己喜欢的生活……最重要的是，有自己喜欢的身材。我正在努力变成自己喜欢的那个自己……你也是这样吗？