Elf's: Tiredness & Exhausted

I woke up super late these last 2 days, 10am... and I felt very tired still, especially on Saturday, my level of productivity is zero 0.

Then I remember I was not like this back in my time in Sg. I worked for 5.5 days, everyday woke up at around 6am, reached home mostly after 8pm, or sometimes after 11am if there is a ministries activities (choir practice, ministries gathering) or other activities with colleagues or friends. Then on Sunday, I can still wake up at 3.30am to prepare myself to serve for morning choir, and after usher, and will end the day by reaching home at around 10pm, and start the weekly routine again. Those were my days. I was so active, busy and energetic!

And now, after rested for about 3 months, I became so used to the laid back lifestyle... I was physically and mentally exhausted by the long hours of training at the office. Too many product knowledge to absorb, new colleagues to mingle with, and most of them are having very different mindset and even level of moral compared to me. I feel tired to start everything afresh.

Daddy God, I ask, for new dose of strength and energy to impart in me, to start afresh my new life here with my new career, new colleagues, new friends and most of all, my beloved family members. Honestly, Lord, You know that I really felt very stressful with my family now, I am still learning on how to live with them in a harmony and happy way. I can't stand the way my sis talked to me, like she is the king of the house, always giving instructions and showing her temper whenever she hears thing that is not pleasing to her or even like to tease/ insult/ make fun of  my belief in Jesus, and mom, for being over sensitive in many areas. Help me, Lord! Help me!

Elf's: Birthday

Today, the Countdown apps on my iPhone reminded me that it's one month to go to my birthday, my 34th birthday!

34th birthday... it's going to be my first birthday without my beloved dad. Not sure if I want to have any celebration... Even for the Father's Day this year, not sure how we are going to go through it...

As I remember, dad was first hospitalised last year on Father's Day... JR was the one who reminded me when I told him that my dad was hospitalised. How ironic, right?

We were chit-chatting last night and was once again talked about dad and his life. Tears filled up all our eyes... and I know, we all miss dad dearly... But we also knew what happened to dad was the best from the Lord. At least he left us with a smile on his face and he did not suffer the pains that we saw like others cancer patients.

Lord, I really hate cancer... really really hate cancer... please heal all the cancer patients and destroy this ugly and suffering disease from the world... In Jesus' name. Amen!

Anyway, tomorrow, am going to attend tNCC with mom. It'll be the first time my mom attends a Sunday service. Am excited for her and pray that she will feel the touch of Jesus and will accept Jesus as her Lord and Saviour. Amen and amen! Will be celebrating Mother's Day with mom and aunt tomorrow as well. A small celebration before next Sunday on the exact Mother's Day with the other mommies and also grandma. Also, the first Mother's Day without dad...