Elf's: Feeling vs Reality

有时候， 有时候

我会相信一切有尽头

相聚，离开，都有时候

没有什么会永垂不朽

可是我，有时候

宁愿选择留恋，不放手

等到风景都看透

也许你会陪我看细水长流

Heard this song from an album playlist on Spotify just now while walking home from MRT, had a strong feeling about the lyrics of the chorus... what if I never give up, will there be a change?

But God is good, as I am typing and asking myself all the "what if" question, the Holy Spirit reminded me on my favourite bible verse.

He has made everything beautiful in its time... Ecclesiastes 3:11

How lovely is this reminder... Thank You ABBA!

There is no what if, only surely, in God's promises for me, His beloved. Hallelujah!!!

Oh how beautiful Your love for me

Oh how wonderful Your grace unending

How beautiful and wonderful His love and grace for me, and it's never ending... ♥

Song: Love Magnificent (New Creation Worship)

Update:

Here's the video taken during last year's Christmas service, beautifully sang by Jermaine, and the worship team. I have updated the Korean lyrics as church has posted the Korean translation on YouTube as well. Enjoy and be blessed!

There is a new song released by NCC for this Christmas, Love Magnificent, presented by Jermaine Leong, champion for The Final 1 2015 Singapore, written by the anointed beautiful sister Karen Lim.

Love Magnificent

A million stars illuminate the skies

As shepherds watched their flock of sheep by night

Bethlehem of old, a prophecy foretold

There God’s incarnate Word took on flesh

A multitude of heavenly host praised God of heaven and earth

For unto us is born, the Saviour of the world

Love, magnificent love

Jesus, You came, You dwelled with us

Everlasting God and King

Yet You gave Your everything 

No other worthy of outstanding praise

Love, magnificent love

Jesus, You said, peace be on earth

Star of hope and majesty

Yet You came to set me free

I love because You first loved me

Darkness fell across the barren plain

As heaven watched, the Son gave up His strength

The innocent became, the Lamb who took my shame

No greater love than this for you and me

Love, magnificent love

Jesus, You came, You dwelled with us

Everlasting God, mighty King

Yet You gave Your everything

No other worthy of outstanding praise

Love, magnificent love

Jesus, You said, peace be on earth

Star of hope and majesty

Yet You came to set me free

I love because You first loved me

I love because You first loved me

마른땅 어둠에 가리고
(Darkness fell across the barren plain)
주의아들 그힘을 버리사
(As heaven watched, the Son gave up His strength)
희생양되신 무고한 주예수
(The innocent became, the Lamb who took my shame)
어찌 이런 사랑 있으리오
(No greater love than this for you and me)

주여 당신의 광대한 사랑의 깊이, 넓이
(Lord, lead me to realise the depth, width)
높이와 그 크기를 깨닫게 하소서 
(Height and greatness of Your magnificent love)
당신의 사랑으로 저의 마음을 가득히 채워주소서 
(Fill my heart with Your love, O Lord)

사랑 광대한 주 사랑
(Love, magnificent love)
예수오셔 함께 하사
(Jesus, You came, You dwelled with us)
영원하신 하나님 나위해 희생했네
(Everlasting God and King, yet You gave Your everything)
우리의 찬양 받으소서
(No other worthy of outstanding praise)
사랑 광대한 주 사랑
(Love, magnificent love)
이땅위에 평화주사
(Jesus, You said, peace be on earth)
장엄한 희망의 빛 자유주신 하나님
(Star of hope and majesty, yet You came to set me free)
나를 처음 사랑하신 주
(I love because You first loved me)

I love because You first loved me

© 2015 New Creation Worship

CCLI: 7051831

It's shared as a gift by New Creation Church, click on this link to download, it's valid until Thursday, 31 December 2015

Movie: Love Endures 爱存在

My second premiere screening since the ice kacang movie few years ago.

It is my first movie premiere in KL, first visit at GSC @ Nu Sentral, first movie with my dear Kai Li and her family, first time meeting a friend from ChongQing - 竹子小姐, first time meeting the first female actor of the movie, first time watching Christian movie in the cinema at Malaysia.

Love Endures, 爱存在 is a very touching story, it's about the love of a father, and even he is not the biological father, his love for the daughter is unconditional and it costs his life in the end.

廖啟智 has done a very good job as a 弱智爸爸, he made the role comes alive. All other actors from Malaysia or if any other countries, kudos! You all have "earned" many tears from the all the ppl in the house, especially mine.

I was reminded of my late father, whom I love and whom loves me very much, whom has went home with the Lord about 6 months now. I miss him, very much! And of cause, I feel the love of our Heavenly Daddy throughout the movie. Thank You Daddy God!

TDM: Day 11

Started our 3rd week of training.

First of all, congratulations to me and Tracy, for being the only two persons who scored 100% full mark on our second assessment. Kudos! Well done! 

Obviously, I am very happy! I thank Jesus for the favour and the wisdom He has given me. Thanks Janet and Hani for the revision and teachings for the past 2 weeks. 

I hope to do better for the future assessment and will be promoted as the TL in no time. 

A few of the team mates was caught using mobile phone at the call floor, browsing on others website like Google and Lelong.com other than SAA, and even charged their phone using the usb port of the PC. The IT team has sent an email to the operation manager on this issue and Hani was very angry with this bunch of students. 

We do not know who are they, and I seriously don't really care who are they. However, Adel was deeply affected as Hani mentioned that she will shuffle all the seats. I don't really mind, it's good to meet or mingle with other team mates as well. So, let's see how it goes tomorrow. 

Till then, I am going to celebrate my 100% result by attending a movie premiere screening, invited by my bff - Kai Li. 

Elf's: Tiredness & Exhausted

I woke up super late these last 2 days, 10am... and I felt very tired still, especially on Saturday, my level of productivity is zero 0.

Then I remember I was not like this back in my time in Sg. I worked for 5.5 days, everyday woke up at around 6am, reached home mostly after 8pm, or sometimes after 11am if there is a ministries activities (choir practice, ministries gathering) or other activities with colleagues or friends. Then on Sunday, I can still wake up at 3.30am to prepare myself to serve for morning choir, and after usher, and will end the day by reaching home at around 10pm, and start the weekly routine again. Those were my days. I was so active, busy and energetic!

And now, after rested for about 3 months, I became so used to the laid back lifestyle... I was physically and mentally exhausted by the long hours of training at the office. Too many product knowledge to absorb, new colleagues to mingle with, and most of them are having very different mindset and even level of moral compared to me. I feel tired to start everything afresh.

Daddy God, I ask, for new dose of strength and energy to impart in me, to start afresh my new life here with my new career, new colleagues, new friends and most of all, my beloved family members. Honestly, Lord, You know that I really felt very stressful with my family now, I am still learning on how to live with them in a harmony and happy way. I can't stand the way my sis talked to me, like she is the king of the house, always giving instructions and showing her temper whenever she hears thing that is not pleasing to her or even like to tease/ insult/ make fun of  my belief in Jesus, and mom, for being over sensitive in many areas. Help me, Lord! Help me!

Elf's: My150602

My 34th birthday... Bengie said I look like 27th, I can only praise God for renewing my youth and to be ageless and never grow old, but grow wiser and stronger in Him! Amen!

Received many wishes from FB, WA, SMS, from so many closed and not so-closed friends as well.

A birthday song was sang in the office before we started our training, it was so nice, I thought I won't be enjoying it, but in the end, I like it. Thank You Jesus!

Fatin gave me 2 nutella as my birthday gift, so sweet and nice of her, Adel gave me a pandan cake, coz she never prepare any gift for me, actually, I don't really need any birthday present, I literally have everything that I need, the thought is more than enough, really.

At night, mom cooked spaghetti, Sannie called Domino's pizza and PuiYee bought me a birthday cake for a small celebration at home, with only family member, my bff, called and wanted to bring me out for a piece of cake as a form of celebration, but I rejected as I need to study for tomorrow assessment. Then, I thought of inviting her to my place for the small celebration together, since she is closed to my family too.

It was a very warmth night, celebrating my 34th birthday, with mom, sis, cousin, ZJ & bff - Kaili! Thanks for all the effort you all made for me, I appreciate all of them and love all of you very much!

Thank You Jesus, for family and friends! Hallelujah!

TDM: Day 6

It's Monday! First day of June, first working day of the week...

Today we finally wrapped up the module one, and also it's so close to Wednesday & Thursday for the assessments...

Actually, I am not anxious for the assessment, this is definitely unusual for the people of the world, but, I am in the world but not of the world. As Jesus is, so am I in this world. Jesus is the Prince of peace, and He never feel anxious, so am I.

Today, I was locked by my locker. It happened to me once when I was serving in church. I miss ncc, so much!

Looking forward to a better tomorrow!

TDM: Day 3

Today, we learnt really a lot.. overload with job knowledge, literally...

The different tiers of KF & PPS program, the qualification, benefits and privileges...

But, I am excited to learn more.. and I thank God for the wisdom He gave me and make me a quick and fast learner. I asked 2 questions today, which is something I don't usually do. Haha!

Lord, thank You for surrounding me with this bunch of fun people, as well as the super patient and soft-spoken trainers.

We were instructed to submit 5 names as our call name to for TDS to check on the availability and we will use the name as our call name when we are on the call floor. I have submitted the below:

1. Evelyn
2. Zoé 
3. Lay Fun
4. Eve
5. Charis

My original choice for the 5th one was Evelyn Zoé, but Hani said that it's too long, so, I decided to change it to Charis, which means Grace in greek. Cool, right? Hopefully Zoé is still available, coz I doubt that Evelyn will be available call name for me. If Zoé is not available, then I hope Charis is. :) 

TDM: Day 2

First day of job training... Our trainer - Ms Hani, Co-Trainer - Ms Lok Lim, and the Trainer of honor - Ms Janet from TMS (Teledirect Telecommerce Singapore) had gave us a very good time during today's training, detailed and organized, and they are very professional too.

The guys in the class are very active in throwing questions throughout the training, me on the other hand, busying to jot down the golden nuggets when the trainer were answering their questions. However, most of the questions they asked, I seem to know the answer. I think that's because I did a quite thorough research for this programme when I went for my 2nd interview, and that has truly benefits me a lot.

Of coz, I am not saying that I knew everything... Coz, I am totally new in this field and there are many more for me to learn, to understand and to discover.

Today, the most interesting topic we covered, to me will be the 2 letters airline code and the MARMS. And the trainers had reminded us that these 2 will be part of our test on next Wednesday & Thursday.

The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not lack. I have the mind of Christ, and the Lord granted me wisdom and favor, in everything / situation that I am in. In Jesus' name. Amen!

Elf's: End of the long vacation

It's my first time to experience this, no work for almost 3 months...

After my return from SG on 5 March, I went for a 5 days 4 nights trip at Hua Hin + Bangkok with my family. Then, had been travelling to Batu Gajah with Laney for 2 times and sent her off to London at KLIA.

Spent some precious time with Laney and Mandee during that one month period. Celebrated Mandee's 3rd birthday there as well. It was fun to see kids growing up healthy and happy, Mandee is a happy, healthy and strong baby, and we love her very much!

Got my job offer after sending several job application through Jobstreet, and went to just one company for interviews. I believe, this is God's opened door for me, as I had another job interview that just could not made it even for the 1st interview. God is good!

And tomorrow, I will start my new journey for my career at my hometown... A customer service rep for SIA Krisflyer program. There will be training for 2 months, and the HR manager shared that we will have tests and homework almost everyday. A lil stress upon hearing that yet many excitements in this new environment, such a big team, with mostly Indians, then Malays, Chinese and Pinoys, yes, it seems that I am really have certain fate with Pinoy... Lol!~ Not foreseeing any romance with them, the 2 Pinoys that I met so far, one is a female, the other should be a male, but more like a female to me...

Hopefully, my aim in being promoted as the team leader directly after the training will come true. Bible's Hope, is the confident, positive, expectation of good, Lord, I say AMEN!

Elf's: Let Not Your Heart Be Troubled

It truly must be God, my Abba, my Daddy God.

This verse popped up to me at least 3 times last night after I posted my blog.

On today's meditation, pastor also reminded this verse as well...

"How can you let your heart not be troubled nor afraid? By receiving a fresh dose of perfect peace directly from the Prince of Peace today. Turn your cares into prayers, knowing that the Lord of peace Himself is in you, with you and for you. His robust peace will bring you safely through every storm!"

How loved I am by You, my Lord! And in today's meditation email, the verse that pastor shared is

"Now may the Lord of peace Himself give you peace always in every way. The Lord be with you all. - 2 Thessalonians 3:16"

This is the solution that I am looking for, the Lord of peace - Jesus, my Prince of Peace.

Elf's: One more week to go...

Yes, time flies... and my training for the new job will be starting in less than a week now.

Am pretty excited and yet anxious... have not been working for about 3 months now, and to think of the big group of new colleagues, the trainer as well as the upper level in-charge.... Phew~! 

I was once again be reminded of the Bible verse below: 

“Let not your heart be troubled... John 14:1(a)"

Thank You Lord for such reminder... If God is for me, who can be against me? Whom shall I fear? Reminds me of Chris Tomlin's song as well. Haha! Lord, You are soooo amazing! 

I shall be at rest, not be troubled. In Jesus' name. Amen! 

Family: Blessed Mother's Day 2015!

These carnations are given by the sales person from Eu Yan Sang, when we were there yesterday to shop for some products for my sister and our family, beautiful hot pink carnations, and I believe, mom likes them.'

We had a private celebration with mom and aunt Kim on last Sunday, at Mama's Korean. This Sunday, we had another 2 celebrations, lunch and dinner. 

Sannie and I brought mom to the Work 31 Shop Cafe located at Metro Perdana for lunch. It's a nice cafe with some delicious foods as well as a good cuppa coffee. We had ordered a photobook for mom as a gift, and we handed it to her while we were waiting for our foods and drinks. Mom loves the photobook. 

Our family culture is to have a dinner with grandma and all other direct relatives, so, we had 2 tables booked at Guan Kee restaurant. The food was normal except the curry prawn, it was very delicious. However, their service was very bad. Not sure if I will dine at this restaurant again, unless at my grandma's request. 

This is the first mother's day I spent in KL since 2007. Looking at all my relatives, my family members, I knew I have missed out so much since 2007. And this is also the first Mother's Day we celebrate without my dad... Daddy, we miss you, I miss you so much! 

Nanako also posted a pic on FB, a pic I shared a year ago, when I celebrated Mother's day with her last year. I dated her for dinner at JPM during her dinner break, she was still working at FP during that time. I guess, she misses me a lot! Haha!

But God is so good and faithful. He is restoring all the lost time for me and my family. His hands are definitely in my story, in my life. Thank You Lord! Felt so loved by You, always! 

Elf's: Old flame....

RT and I have been exchanging text since I got back from my previous SG trip...

He would text me everyday, not almost everyday, but everyday without fail. Sometimes a greeting in the morning, then after 1-2 exchanged text, he will text again during lunch break, we might chat for about an hour if I was not too busy, and then at night, he will text me again, and we will continue text-ing each other until his bedtime...

It helps to dilute my feelings towards JR... It also helps to divert my attention for JR too, that I don't always looking forward for his msg days and nights. 

However, I was also afraid myself to develop the old feeling I had for him again... He has also reminded me to guard my heart. Of course, by writing this out, I am being honest to myself here. I am guarding my heart for sure. 

I have 100% forgiven him for what he did on me years ago. There is no more bitterness between me and him. I am sure he is not holding any bitterness against me, he is too care-free. He is also not the type of guy that will stay for me. But the way he treated me nowadays, do reminded me of the good old days we used to have, a very short of 3 months we had. He is still as sweet and nice. He is a brother to me now. Someone whom I can talk my heart out, and expect for honest advise and comment, not being too harsh, like JR. 

JR has been very harsh to me recently. Maybe he has forgotten that I am a lady, I cannot stand for the way he treated me. I feel like he is trying to make me angry. Well, how could I get angry with him? He has been a very good and nice friend to me, I have learnt a lot from him, and I thank God for a friend like him too.

Anyway, my heart is with God, He shall guard my heart for me, no one can steal it away from Him. It's my blessed assurance. Thank You Abba!  

"Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life." 

-Proverbs 4:23 (NLT)- 

Songs: 上帝早已預備 (Touch Mi Live Version) [Official] [官方]

很棒的舞台，很玄的妆容，很美的合音，很真的演唱！所有的荣耀归于主耶稣一人！

上帝早已預備

作曲：陸偉峰/Phat@24 Herbs

填詞：陸偉峰

就算我可得到世間的財寶

但你卻說要我知道 是永生的道路

是我在罪人時你賜我中保

就算我可得到今生的自豪

但你卻說要我知道

別為因此而煩惱 在絕望裡投訴

只要仰望主哪怕會迷路 

上帝早已預備 我不相信運氣

即使風光明媚 但卻不是你預期

上帝早已預備 至少我不被遺棄

難得你為我死

就算我可得到今生的自豪

但你卻說要我知道

別為因此而煩惱 在絕望裡投訴

只要仰望主哪怕會迷路 

上帝早已預備 我不相信運氣
即使風光明媚 但卻不是你預期

上帝早已預備 至少我不被遺棄

難得你為我死

感謝你 你會為我打氣

感謝你 從谷底將我救起

感謝你 縱使失去我的真理

但我沒有忘記

上帝早已預備 我不相信運氣

即使風光明媚 但卻不是你預期

上帝早已預備 只少我不被遺棄

難得你為我死 

難得你為我死

Songs: Restore

Here's another song from ncc, I believe it is written based on the church theme of the year - The Year of His Restoration!

Not sure who written this song. And surprisingly, many of us when we first heard of this song, we actually don't really like it.. however, it just gets better and nicer as we sing this to ourselves during practices and p&w session on stage and at church. 

I also believe that this is a word and a promise that the Lord is giving to me for this coming years... His restoration will be done in my life. Thank You Jesus! Thank You Daddy God! Hallelujah!

Restore

Copyright 2015 New Creation Church Singapore

Eternal one, Your love has won 

My salvation 

Restore my days, the wasted years

My Redeemer

Our spirits soar, our youth renewed 

As we wait on You 

For what was lost, Your grace will pour 

You give so much more 

Restore us! 

Darkness turns to light You are light 

You draw us! Closer to Your side To your side

The prodigal, embraced in love By the Father 

In You I rest, my heart confess You’re my Shepherd 

Our spirits soar, our youth renewed 

As we wait on You 

For what was lost, Your grace will pour 

You give so much more 

Restore us! 

Darkness turns to light You are light 

You draw us! Closer to Your side To your side

Hope comes alive in You , Jesus, Lord Jesus 

Closer, draw near to You, Jesus, Lord Jesus 

FMF: When

When? When can I get my breakthrough? I feel like trapping and need to get out from the box that is trapping me here...

Thanks be to God, I am leaving for a new environment soon. Leaving this country for good, though there are many people and things that I hardly want to let go, but I am reminded every time that I really should let go, and let GOD!

Proverbs 16:9, is a verse given to me by Ada during one of our coffee gathering.. and while I was searching for a pic for the blog, I was reading on her word and I got the pic below by searching "let go and let God". Truly He is with me and has directed my steps... Hallelujah! Thank You Lord!

Church: Worship Family Night (WFN) 2014 - Christmas

Celebrated the last Worship Family Night (WFN) of 2014, with a sumptous buffet spread and an international costume theme for all the attendees, and welcome gifts, blessed draw and most of all, a great theme - OMG, One Mighty God! To celebrate the birthday of Jesus, with all the beloveds of Him.

I had borrowed my Punjabi  costume from DP as I do not have any international costume. Here's some of my selfie...

I guess I do look good in this Punjabi suits. Haha!

Of coz, almost everyone dressed themselves up in different costume from different country as well... Check it out here!

We have China, Korea, Indonesia, Vietnam and so on... 

The church has acknowledged the good work of Wendy, our choir director and tonight, she was promoted as deaconess of the church as well. Deaconess Wendy is a very dedicated person with spirit of excellent and high commitment, passionate, and loving leader for the choir. I have learnt a lot from this wonderful woman of God, and I am so thankful for her labour of love towards each and everyone in the worship ministry. Congratulation Deaconess Wendy, you are a true leader!

It's so good to be in the house of the Lord, spending time to praise and worship Him under one roof, with one heart and one voice, singing praises to the One and only - Jesus Christ!

Songs: New Creation Worship | Sweeter Than Wine

Update:

Here's the video of this beautiful song. Enjoy and be blessed!

Yeap... I got my blog tittle from this song, very anointed song written by the worship team of New Creation Church. We sang it for last night midweek service - P&W session. Such a refresher for me...

Sweeter Than Wine

Copyright 2011 New Creation Church Singapore

Before the earth's creation

You knew me as I was

And even then You chose me to be Yours

I am captivated

By Your ending love

Lord, my heart's surrendered to Your grace

And I can't help

But to lift my voice and say

Your love is better than life

Sweeter than wine

It's more than I can ever imagine

You love is all that I need

So Lord I receive

Your loving kindness and grace for me

Lord I am Your treasure

The apple of Your eye

Forever I am precious in Your sight

Never will You leave me

I'm safe and secure

Forever in Your arms I will abide

And I can't help

But to lift my voice and say

Your love is better than life

Sweeter than wine

It's more than I can ever imagine

You love is all that I need

So Lord I receive

Your loving kindness and grace for me

FMF: Connect

Philippians 2:1-2Amplified Bible (AMP)

2 So by whatever [appeal to you there is in our mutual dwelling in Christ, by whatever] strengthening and consoling and encouraging [our relationship] in Him [affords], by whatever persuasive [a]incentive there is in love, by whatever participation in the [Holy] Spirit [we share], and by whatever depth of affection and compassionate sympathy,

2 Fill up and complete my joy by living in harmony and being of the same mind and one in purpose, having the same love, being in full accord and of one harmonious mind andintention.

First of all, I don't get to see any word from the FMF page, hence, I decided that it will CONNECT, as this is what my church is currently launching, to get connected with the church members and make church life more family like.

I was looking for bible verses related to connect or connection, and came across these verse as quoted above.

I was deeply hurt by a church friend when I moved to my current church, and so I was telling God, I don't want to make any friends here, please don't send me friends. I literally closed myself up. But God, as usual, has a better plan for me. He set-up Chingay for me to sign up, and met VL, my ex-colleague back, and friends kept flowing in for me. Then I met BC, and she brought me to serve in RSM, and after that we both together with other friends from Chingay signed up for choir audition. And I got more than 1 hundred fold of what I have lost.

I was still not opened, very reserved towards new friends. But God loves me deeply and sent me friends that are very passionate and somehow can feel me and they melted my "wall". I enjoy the new friends that I made in RSM, as well as choir. I have a WWJD group as well as JDFC from both ministry. They are like my second family. We love, uplift, encourage, pray for each other.

Not to forget my M Club jimuis in Malaysia. They are my closest family, whom God has greatly blessed me with. MY, YT, CY & KL, I just love you all so much! I pray for salvation to come to each and everyone of you, in Jesus' name. Amen!

The best thing is, God restored my broken relationship with the one who hurt me before, and we are like the closest sisters for each other again. God know us best, He knows that we love each other, it's the pride that destroy our friendship. He spoke to me in many ways, and I know, I have to let her that I have already forgiven her. Although JR doesn't agree for what I did, but I know that this is the way. JR should not be controlling my choice of friends and actions.

And of course, my best friend will always be Jesus, who will never leave me nor forsake me. Thank You Lord.